StArRy NiGhT

Bittesweet - paradoxical taste of life

2005-09-28T01:04:00.000-07:00

Whatever that has happened,
I no longer care two hoots.
Right now.. i better buck up.
hate to be lagging behind.
feels really terrible. but i think
i'm gonna be so dead for prelims.

Life's been somewhat filled with ups and downs.
or rather more downs than ups.
i don't know!! bleahs. can't handle it.
you'll understand what it means to be alone.
and its the way of life.
you'll never what happens tomorrow.
For all u know, what seems like a promising future
may be dashed by some mistakes.
ya whatever it is, i need to like work ten times
harder than the others!
have to be self motivated =P

2005-06-01T05:10:00.000-07:00

its been a really long time since i updated..

many things happened.

my results are a great disappointment.

i dunno why too..

maybe i shld juz quit school?

i seriously dun think i m cut out for books.

i totally suck at tt kkz!

i feel totally lost now.

its a little bit funny..

this feeling inside me..

i wanna go on but yet i dun think i can?

coz i keep failing..

no matter how hard i have tried.

nothing seems to work out for me.

so should i give up?

i have been thinking abt it....

i see everyone so stress and pressurized..

what has the world come to?

everything is all abt study study and study..

there is practically no meaning in life.

why are there such cold blooded creatures in the world?

don't u get it?

looks can be deceiving..

bleahs. i dun wanna talk abt it anymore..

i frust up my sleeves..

lost hopefor everything even my passion.

i'm like a living dead..

i feel so inferior..

dunno whats happening to me.

2005-04-13T05:06:00.000-07:00

ballet_BALLET_ballet

haiz. Failed!

this time i did real bad. i juz noe it.

kiss goodbye to my distinction..

horrible experience.

dun feel like talking abt it.

juz felt everything cld have been done sooo much better.

i don't wanna get back my results!! plz!

hopes dashed. dreams shattered.

i think i'll like get the lowest mark cann?

sigh. wadeva its over.

FAILURE!!

I'm.a.big.failure.

I.failed.time.and.again.

I.noe.I'm.totally.useless.

I.give.up.on.myself

2005-04-02T23:23:00.000-08:00

Approximaetly 23 hours left..

the mins r slowly ticking away..

after this long awaited 23 hours..

i guess everything will be over..

i really dread this moment.

every year, without fail..

once again, this moment is approaching.

i think this time round..

i'll cry, juz weep.

they did. and its nothing.

i might not dance for more than 6 months.

i will lose touch of everything.

life will be terrible.

once its over, there's no turning back.

this is the sacrifice i've put myself to.

really can't bear for the exams to be over..

when its over it simply means....

BACK TO BOOKS!

which i strongly detest!

this time, be it good or bad.

should i cry?

queen said we shld be happy instead.

coz we finally got this over and done.

but..what if u screwed up the whole thing?

i'll feel utterly disappointed & demoralized.

the pressure is building up! i have to hold on to it.

i can't imagine what ll happen shld i lose it..

gOoD LuCk deAriEs..

hope everything will b fine during this 55 mins.

the most memorable time for me!

i'll cherish it..best wishes!

i'm glad tt u guys helped me thru' thanks.

to queen & jy, i blive we can make it!

let's dance our heart out!

_* may the lord bless us *_

2005-03-13T06:14:00.000-08:00

STRESS!! competition!!

i give up..totally give up..

i cant do it..there is too much competition.

pressured..lack of confidence.

feeling totally down & demoralized.

looks like this time it wouldn be perfect.

not even near GOOD..

she is seriously too good for me!

in fact all of them...every single one except me.

i surrender. i was forced to do so!

y did ya have to push me to tt..

its not my forte!

this time. i dun even have the will to fight on.

juz leaving my life in the hands of fate.

no motivation nor energy.

listness and tired coz of this premonition.

i can predict whats gonna happen.

everything tt i dun wish for!

Nothing is gonna turn oout right this time.

i know it..it just will be.

i don't give a damn already.

i m gonna die under character.

can u blive it?! doomed coz of tt??

fine..whatever i'm hell outta this world.

i want to work for it but i juz can't!!!

there is absolutely no chance..

not anymore..coz of THAT..

What am i gonna do..

i hAte it..i really do.. bleahzz.

y did u make me do tt..

u totally ruined my confidence.

.............back to square one...........

2005-03-09T02:55:00.000-08:00

RoMeO & juLiEt...
Date: 4th April 2005
Venue: Waterfront
Time: 6 to 10 pm
ppl!! e2rians!! almost the whole class except for some who cld make it.
n. koh and ms ten. bought loads of goodies to eat!

this pic is really chaotic!! haha.

jerald (the hippo!) birthday celebration..surprise cake 4 him! he was happy! haha.

this one is rather nice. juz tt i was strangled??

see our fist?! dun mess with e2 girls! haha.

cheezyy..took lots of pics! so funn!

aud & me.. so retarded =/ anw the sky tt night was lovely!

BOOM! the whole grp is in! haha..

alex n mitch act cOoL.. haha kidding =)

2005-03-06T05:38:00.000-08:00

nEveR GiVE uP.........

Don't be down, it's only happening like a stormy night
Don't be down, it's only failure as a missing way
Don't escape, it's just a race for the freedom
Don't escape, it's just a game of really survival

This is chance to be stepping-up,
Chance to be growing-up
Do it, do it, do it, do it, do it now
So keep on trying again, and keep on playing again
Nobody knows what you want to be

Don't be down, it's only notice of the movement
Don't be down, it's only starting of the other world
Don't escape, it's just a changing for my passing day
Don't escape, it's just a exercise for the future

This is chance to stepping-up,
Chance to be growing-up
Do it, do it, do it, do it, do it now
So keep on doing again, and keep on laughing again
Nobody can't go with your way

* Hey hey, never never give up
Everybody wake up
Life is like a battle
Lonely way for justice
Never never give up
Everybody face up
Listen to the voice in soul

Hey hey, hurry hurry hurry up
Everybody wake up
Life is like a battle
Lonely way for justice
Hurry hurry hurry up
Everybody face up
Go on fighting with yourself

Don't be down, it's only tears like a rainy day
Don't be down, it's only pain as a falling down
Don't escape, it's just a race for the happiness
Don't escape, it's just a game of really chasing love

2005-02-24T02:50:00.000-08:00

hmm..let's see..

cny is alr over and tts a bad thing..

coz we have to wait another yr before the next cny!

sighh..ok back to books time..

must run this last lap alr.

stduy so many years juz for this BIG BIG exam.

haha..eh ya dunno y..

but feeling kinda grumpy these few days..

probably coz too caught up with work?

feel like everyday is so busy. no time to rest?

aft sch..always have smth on at night.

either tuition or ballet etc.

haizz. anwi have to really start now..

study priority...but i cant wait for my ballet exam!

so funn noe..i'm tinkling with excitement!!

haha..but guess i've to stop ballet aft april..

concentrate on O's..yupps

yes ppl..juz to let u noe..

well our line (me, queen, jun yan)

is the last grpp of the whole sch again!!

think tts bad news though.

mm probably wants to give us more time to practice??

i think we are too lousy. =( nvm..

i'm juz praying real hard tt ms. anterson wont make things diff.

coz she is from RAD!!!! which means...

she will be more strict!! ahhh..

hope everything will be alright..

cannot slack alr must quickly grasp the techniques..

but seriously i dun have much confidence this time round.

coz everyone like sooo goood..

i'm dead meat mann. competition so stiff..

arrghh..anw gd luck to carena and her team tmr.

they are playing against cedar.

haha hope we win yea..

i'm so tried i really need a break mann.

my life is a routine. n i dun like it!

somehow..it feels like i wasn't meant to be here..

my existence is not known.

i juz feel so down..

ok forget it..i'll chill out.. =/

2005-02-11T22:18:00.000-08:00

gong xi fa cai!

haha happy lunar new year peeps!

whee. had a great time in val's hse.

it was really cool cann?

haha.ok first we all went home.

then met at 5 at bishan.

kw, ed, me, aud, sh, xf met up.

haha everyone wear until so nice.

lol. anw we went to j8 and took neoprints!

SO FUNN! haha..

then we were like so freaked out..

the camera so fast!! haha.

but the pics were kinda kawaii..

after tt it was 6 plus alr.

proceeded to val's hse.

samuel, li jian & yilyn were alr there.

ordered pizza and chicken drumplets!

yum yum~ haha..

oooo..jerald, alex & carena came at around 9.

haha played ,mahjong and cards.

the card game was quite exciting!!

but i lost money haha.

and jerald and alex won i think..

anw tt game was really funn.

ok left her hse at abt 1120?

stupid jerald keep asking me to take 13.

anw.. aud sh and xf took a cab home.

left with alex jerald carena and me.

haha.. then i guessed he sent her home.

whee...god luck to them..lol

oh ya on the bus the hippo was really crapping alot.

he was talking abt tt person....haha

ok anw gtg visit queen now.

bye..happy CnY!

2005-01-29T07:52:00.000-08:00

ARRGGHH!

so f***ing pissed...

here's to you.

To think that i respected you..

u r not worth any now.

seriously, in my eyes..

i m beginning to hate you. HATE YOU!

what more do u wat from me!!?

i've alr given u a 100 marks!

anw who do u think u r?!

some kinda snobbish and insensitive witch!

MARK my words...

i'm no longer gonna look up to u.

bitch bitch bitch..

if only i could go up & slap u.

if u dun stop all this insults.

I'll QUIT!!

DUN u regret what u did.

you r so freaking blunt. asshole!

i'll get back at you!

mark my words. it's only a matter of time.

FREAAKK r u out to ruin my life??!

STOP IT KKZ..

i'm warning you............

2005-01-21T06:59:00.000-08:00

whee! ytd was real cool.
we had loads of fun.
went to catch the seed of chucky with..
aud, xf, car, kw, ed.. (the same few)
bought lots of popcorns and twisties!
the show was "dirty" & "sick"..
but i guess the guys were drooling!
haha we took "neoprints" with my phone.
so nice lea. shld credit my phone. haha
anws, had funn taking so many pics.
our retardedness also added to the humour.
so was really very relaxed & stress free.
looking forward to the next outing!
i really had a great time. thanks everyone. =P
enjoy the "neoprints" below.

2005-01-21T04:55:00.000-08:00

"NeO - pRiNnTs"... kinda kawaii.. =) enjoy!

i took this.. nice??

hmm..car was bz buying ice cream! tts y not in.

aud trying to be funny larr..hmph! bully!

yay! our 1st attempt! not bad lea.

trying to take..but hands too short! kw head cut off. heez.

credit to xf.. a very nice night shot! haha.. =P

2005-01-16T05:01:00.000-08:00

That's What F.R.I.E.N.D.S Are For..

And I never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned
I'm glad I got the chance to say
That I do believe I love you

And if I should ever go away
Well then close your eyes and try
To feel the way we do today
And then if you can remember

Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

Well you came in loving me
And now there's so much more I see
And so by the way I thank you

Oh and then for the times when we're apart
Well then close your eyes and know
The words are coming from my heart
And then if you can remember

2005-01-14T07:45:00.000-08:00

Bitches of the world mann!

damn her. esp HER.

she was the cause of all the humiliation.

SHE started all these!

shit. shldn have been so stupid.

coz of tt now my life is in a mess.

what the hell cann?

y is she always bringing me touble.

jinx. guess tts juz her.

i got so embarassed today larr.

can't stand it. so insenstive.

arrgghh!! juz get lost mann.

sheesh now everyone noes.

juz coz of THAT & i've been shamed!

wadeva. F*** mann.

i m really very very pissed now.

so plz dun mind me.

ahhh! freaky things & ppl.

Get Outta My Life yea?!!

2005-01-10T01:19:00.000-08:00

sad. disappointed. mixed feeling.

well my performance is already over.

probably tts a good news? i dunno.

but seriously.i feel like quite sad?

ok.friday's evening show was the

greatest show ever mann!

tt perfomance really rockeddd!

i had a great sense of achievement

when i finished my last item.
practically jumping for joy??! haha

it was so nice of mm to give us a

bouquet of flowers each with a teddy!

woah first time kkz.

haha then she pecked all of us on the cheek?

cld tell tt she was really happy with us.

tt made us feel good too.

christopher, michelle, vera, adelene & chong

gave us flowers and chocolates!!

so many niccee stuff noes..

Lorraine & cheryl gave us flowers too!

so sweet of them.. =)

however..sat night's concert was disastrous.

the worsee one ever cann?!

i guess i was TOO nervous?

coz my parents,mrs n & hubby, kass & xf

were there? i juz felt like SUPERR doom??

haiz.i really dunno what to say..

the floor was damn slippery almost fell!!

& coz of tt i didn smile at all..

what a pity mann..

i really wish tt time cld turn back.

so at least i cld put in 100 % of my effort?

now all my hard work has gone down the drains.

i failed to live up to my own expectations.

feeling extremely disappointed & disheartened.

i dunno y but this incident has really bothered me.

to the extent tt i almost cried?

really super duper disappointed with myself.

i dunno what else to say..

disappointed...disappointed..

..detnioppasid...detnioppasid

2005-01-01T23:44:00.000-08:00

DIET,

DIET!

NO MORE SNACKS FOR ME MANN!

I PUT ON 1 KG AFT THE ICE CREAM AT SWENSONS!

DAMN. CANT EAT ANYMORE.

HAHAHA I M GOING CRAZY!!

I THINK I FALLING SICK ALR

& TT TOTALLY SUX CANN......

BLEAHS GONNA SLP SOON.....

2004-12-31T09:28:00.000-08:00

Thinking back...year 2004..

it was really a great yr for me!

i think i grew up alot thru' this yr.

it's really sad noe..bidding 2004' goodbye

oh well, look on the brighter side.

one muz always live in the future not past.

i have alot of reflections to pin down..

1st, i'm happy to enter the fun adorable class 3e2 04'

left alot of deep memories..thnx ppl..

2nd, really happy with myself for my ballet results.

for 05's exam, i'm gonna work v. v. hard!

3rd, m glad to have so many good friends..

thnx for being there for me. u rock my world.

i'm grateful & touched.may our friendship last 4ever!

however, regret not spending enough time to study.

i muz be more disciplined. no more play.

it's serious business this time.

ok tts abt it. but i really will miss 2004.

had a mini countdown party juz now.

aud, xf, kw, val, sam lost their way..

they took a cab, reached at around 6?

ed was smart enough to find his own way.

haha..everyone did some hw..

then we ordered Hawaiin pizza (2 large ones)

woah so full! also had sushi, jap chicken, garlic bread.

oh we gambled after that? had really loads of fun!

i guess everyone laughed their hearts out?

i can't emphasize on the word F-U-N..

ok thnx to everyone who came.

hope u had as much fun as i did.. =P

may god bless everyone & best wishes!

oh yes..all of us were silent 4 the "I DREAM" song.

really touching.felt like crying..

ok school is gonna start..

no more procrastination for me!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2004-12-29T07:23:00.000-08:00

ok..countdown to hell days..

around 4 more days left!! ahh!

help me still got tons of hw!! haha.

how?? god plz save me..

oh well, went to joshua's hse warming..

luckily got audrey to go also.

guess what?! we did hw at his hse larr!

so guai right? haha actually is copy..

alot of ex e1 went. at first quite left out.

pei wen, wei chao, yong jie, hao ran, desmond, jerald,

wen xing, yi hoong, jia yan, eliza, aik hong..

and bbq food alot!! but i cld hardly eat.

oh & tt stupid desmond arh..

keep teasing me coz of my braces. whatever!

quite crappy larr. they talk loads of rubbish..

laugh like mad! =)

jerald was really creating noise pollution!

he was playing rubbish on the guitar..

and it blasted our ears!!

stupid cheng irritating! refused to return my pen larr!

and jerald plz rmb to return my compre.

u owe me one mann. haha.

yea gal! thnx for the blouse. it's real pretty!

so sweet of u! u noe who u r.. =P

nights ppl. gotta CHIONg hw.

wish me luck..

2004-12-25T20:33:00.000-08:00

It's hard to think of anything

But Christmas in December.

There's so much to look forward to

And so much to remember.

Each evening when goodnights are said,

Take off one link and hop into bed.

When only the star is left to shine,

When you will know it's Christmas time!

Santa's sometimes called Kris Kringle.

His merry eyes--oh how they twinkle.

His nose and cheeks are red as a rose,

Which match all his bright red clothes.

Wearing a white beard and boots of black,

He's a jolly elf carrying his sack.

When he laught, he "ho, ho, hos,"

From the tip of his hat to the end of his nose.

mErRy ChRiStMaS!

2004-12-22T20:46:00.000-08:00

hmm..too lazy to blog noes.

really so sian. haha. yea. aud is coming back tmr.

yes! then we can go play alr. and do "mass copying"

ok let me recall what i have been doing.

MoNdAe to SuNdaE (12/12 - 18/12)

went to malaysia, drove up with uncle kevin & family.
went genting, malacca, port dickson.
oh yes did loads of shopping!! tt rox mann! haha.
went fishing, canoeing, swimming, bowling. quite funn!
both my bros went to try the flying thing in genting! very niccee lea.
and i ate alot!! i put on 3 kg! damn trying to go on a mass diet. haha

mon:

well, woke up in the "wee" hours. haha met up with xf. then we went swimming at springbloom. really cool mann. the whole pool to ourselves. haha i forced her to swim with me. coz i need to lose weight. then we talked alot. sorta like thrashed out everything. but we were freezing. then we did some hw aft we bathed. thnx for the book ms loo! haha. ok left at abt 12 plus. we went to town. coz i needed to go for dental appt. to put separators. haha then she pei wo. thnx girl. haha we sorta lost our way and we combed the whole of orchard. haha its quite a coincidence tt my doctor is xf's doctor's doctor. haha if u dun get it then nvm. hmm aft tt we hit the streets for shopping. woah walked so long then so tired. oh well, we bought our bags and pencil box! so exciting right. haha coz it was "MISSION ACCOMPLISHED" for both of us. dunno if aud wanna buy the same pencil box as us. haha we also took neoprints but it looks quite retarded. didn noe the 2 of us so swaku haha. xf so blur. haha jk!

tues:

went for dance. haha the dance quite cute lea. but i think v funny! went home at abt 1 plus. then rushed to meet queen at amk station. we were going to jen's condo to swim. whee! the swim was funn. haha den her mama cooked noodles and so on for us. so much food noe! didn noe jun yan was so noisy & crazy! haha me cq, jy stayed till abt 11 plus. nearly got scolded by my mum! haha luckily nothing happened! Phew. but really had funn tt day.

wed:

went for my dental appt in the morning. i dunno if i m retarded or dumb. i actually lost my way AGAIn! haha.then was 10 mins late. i walked in the wrong direction larr. how dumb of me! haha woah! Dr. Kann put on the brackets for me. it hurtx like mad. can hardly eat. all the ulcers are popping out! feel so terrible. but i m getting my full braces for my bottom teeth. haha xf still cant get hers. =P jk larr. but seems like we gonna put the whole thing at the same time! cool right. then went to popular at night to buy books and my bros bought their sch bags.

woke up early again. sigh gonna start on my hw now. wish me luck kkz. i really need to chiong alr. take care peeps!

2004-12-09T09:39:00.000-08:00

hahaha. guess what?

now at auddie's hse larr.

woah tonning at her hse aft the class bbq.

haha so funn! oh well..

kkz woka up at 11 this morning..

then had to fetch the dear princess from amk station!

haah fine u got ur directions wrong not me!!

my side is correct kkz.

haha lol. then wah i thout she pro in making brownies!

but arh..haha looks she isn't?

no larr i was so afriad tt she will burn my kitchen down!

haha u noe larr with her arh..

aiyo anything can happen! hahahah jk jk!

kkz glad the brownies were ok?

in fact they were great! heex.

then met up with kw and jerald.

stupid jer was late haha coz he was with kelly.

hmm. the bbq food was yummy!

ate so much chicken wings! so fattening!

but who cares. alot of ppl went.

didnt really enjoy? ok larr..

quite disappointed though.

thout it wld be more funn & like lively?

yupps. ok looked thru aud's photo album.

haha gonna get her to thrash out her life story.

doubt we will slp tonight! so cool!

hahaha.kkz tts all. =P

2004-12-08T07:37:00.000-08:00

hiyoz everybody!!

haha too lazy to update!

muahahah..but arh auddies keep nagging!

haha.since she request shall make

my entry short & sweet.

hmm..so bored for the past few days.

whole family went on cruise alr..

so sad! i'm starting to miss them..

haha like kinda wish they were around?

but nvm.have been having much funn lately!

yea almost lost my way today.

went to mdm yin fong to take measurements

for the new costumes?

mm wants to make new costumes for us..

haha..then went to bugis with queen.

luckily smart enough to go costume shop first!

we bought new tights.

ooo. told ya mm wld forget to call mdm y.f

anw we walked around in bugis aft tt.

haha so many chocolates!!!

temptations!! not fair.

but can only look.. haha

bought mei mei's chocolate & i did grocery shopping!

bleahs. first time lea.

then queen n i went home.

ok tts abt it.

dun wanna think anymore alr.

nights peepzy!

2004-12-02T06:45:00.000-08:00

What the HELL!

today is the worse day of my life..

felt so weak & lifeless.

i cld hardly stand up straight.

for some reason or another,

i had this terrible tummy pain!

and it was filled with air..

it wasn't the "wanna shit" pain.

but smth worse than that!

but i'm glad 'm feeling better now.

i just hope i will be fit enough for ballet tmr.

if not..i dunno how to explain to mm!

oh yes! we finally finished the item "Serenade"

i fell!! the damn floor was so slippery!!

nvm. anw the item was quite funn.

although v.v tiring..

i was almost out of breath

and the adult class on tues was quite cool.

the way they dance so nice & elegant!

haha *envious*

kkz gotta rest now.

blog again soon (i hope) =P

2004-11-27T05:30:00.000-08:00

woohoo! it finally came!

the day tt i dreaded most!

it was finally over!! my opt..

ms loo xf..yay mine was not as bad as urs.

haha coz i was asleep thru'out the whole opt.

so happy ya noe!!

CANT BLIVE IT..ITS OVER!!

ok i went there very nervous n scared.

Dr.Elliot was damn nice..

err i gotta admit tt the

sedative jab on my hand was kinda pain.

coz the needle SOO thick..

haha but aft the fluid was in my blood.

i fell asleep!i awoke to find everything over.

heex. then whole mouth numb..

felt kinda swollen.

now feeling so much better.

juz that dun dare to laugh.

scared the stitches, chain might tear my gum up!

so dun ever ever make me laugH!!

haha..missed rehearsals today!

queen said they tried on costumes 2day.

ah well.hope they kept for me??

anw played gb with xf almost the whole day.

i think we make great partners.

haha although we were super mean.

yupps. gonnatry brushing my teeth now.

wish me luck.

oh btw. tmr got rehearsal for serenade.

sigh dunno if we shld take part.

wadeva. see first. bb!

2004-11-23T02:35:00.000-08:00

hey QUEEN!

this entry is for u!! haha..

so nicee of me right??

dun need to be grateful..

haha jk jk..we had rehearsals today!

the item is called "JESu" ??

haha weird.. ok..

anw queen n michelle really make a gd pair!

haha they dance tgt so nicely!

heex.. yea tt day when we were at bk..

this was smth soo funny queen said!

i m gonna sorta quote it..

hmmm we were talking abt the pdd..

then i dunno what i said..

then queen said smth like..

ya so disgusting! when they put us down..

coz iits sorta sliding down! haha.

queen's expression so funny n cute!

i can laugh my head off whenever i think of tt!

haha..no offence yea, partner of blurness??

haha ok partner of excellence!

ok queen i guess u muz be feeling

mad at me.. haha but it really was so funny!

haha..ok larr stop teasing u alr..

sayonara! =P

2004-11-20T03:38:00.000-08:00

omg!! i'm so stressed!

not fair..still have to study!

RE-EXAMS SUCK BIG TIME..

feeling quite irritated now..

how i wish tt i had passed my sci!

wth mann.the torment is 100 times more!

coz now, there's no mood to study.

seriously feel like giving up..

but as it seems..

those who give up r sore losers!

so those sitting 4 re like me..

buck up kkz?

i blive we can do it..

and we shall play like mad aft the exams!

cant wait for tt day!! heex..

ok probably going to slp..

no mood to study le..

nights? haha..yea kkz..

sweet dreamz **

2004-11-16T21:07:00.000-08:00

omg! my limbs & back is aching!

it hurts like mad.. haha

guess i m getting old n inflexible?

an had ballet reahersal ytd..

jy, jen, mei, queen, me, aud, adelene, regi

were chosen to put up another item..

we didn noe it was a pas de deux..

then i was like damn unlucky coz i

was made to try out most of the steps first..

bleahs.. so damn scary cann?!

almost fell a few times.

i dunno y mm must make the steps so diff!

n queen haha was so scared she break mm's knees!

haha so funny..

but quite fun though..

although it was extremely dangerous!

i think i too heavy liao!

seriously need to lose tons of weight!

and mm say cannot eat so much during X'mas!

haha i need to lose at least another 3 kg?

yupps. i ll work on it..

guess uncle michelle was strong enough to lift me up?

shld have tried the steps on queen or mei mei larr!

they r like so much lighter cann?!

& the back flip part into a split!

omg tts really horrendous! so scary!

haha btw have rehearsal tmr again..

sh!t mann i forgot abt my dental appt!

die coz its exactly at 3??

hope it wont take so long..

then will rush down for ballet..

plz dun let me be THAt late..

fear mm wld flare up! haha

ok gtg STUDY and DIET!

no more food for me!

must coNtRoL!!! =/

2004-11-12T19:12:00.000-08:00

ONce upon a time, there was a little girl who aspired to be a ballerin. She practised hard day to day and ocassionally, she would wander off to the wilderness to pick flowers and play with the little animals. Then one day, she met a guy, he was nursing after a small rabbit who had been shot in the le. Touched by the boy's kind heart, she hid behind the tree and continued to gaze at him. He had short brown hair and sparkling blue eyes. He wasn;t tall. Neither was he short. She skipped home happily that day and used him as a motivation to practise ballet in her pointe shoes.

Finally, she managed to get into the London School of Fine Arts. There was an audition for the prestigious play called " Princess Audrey & her forbidden love." She wanted so much the role of princess Audrey and practised hard dy and night. During the audition, he went to watch & she started feeling nervous. But as usual, she danced like the fairies and charmed everyone, making him fall head over heels in love with her. Days passed and they grew closer and closer. On a great bright morning, while strolling in a magnificent park, he proposed. She agreed but still had her doubts.

The play would take her to many places in England & there was no aeroplanes at that time, only horse-drawn-carriages. She might be away for years. She was in a dilemma. What would she do? When she told him about it, he was sad and dejected. What would they do? Could he wait for her? IN the end, she decided to leave as it had been her biggest dream. He promised to wait for her return.

Years passed & she missed him dearly. In the end, she decided that it was time for her to return. She searched the entire town for him but she could not fine him. Fear took over as she thought he had loved another woman and had forgotten all about her. She went into the woods, feeling very disappointed and upset. tears rolled down her cheeks. She danced her heart out. Suddeny, she spotted a familiar figure sitting at the magical fountain where they had once vowed to wait for each other. She walked nearer and the mist soon uncovered the figure. Joys of tears flooded her as she embraced him into a hug, followed by a passionate kiss. She had
found him.

They got married and liver happily ever after....

by: Princess AudRey
( a true tale tt touched the hearts of many )

2004-11-05T23:01:00.000-08:00

hey peepz! sry..

have been too lazy to blog..

haha oh well..

actually nothing much to say

err ok my bdae is coming real soon..

but i dunno y..juz dun feel that enthu abt it!

haha..sigh ok anw there is nothing 2

be excited abt..

coz biRtHdAyS r every year?

if ur dunno what 2 get me 4 present.

haha i LOVE CHCOLATES!

heex. juz kidding yea..

rotting at hime right now.

have ballet later.

sigh hope my knees wont give way!

haha..gd luck to the sec 4s.

give ur BeSt sHoT kkz?

*wishes*

2004-11-04T06:44:00.000-08:00

2004-10-31T01:40:00.000-08:00

pardon me coz i'm really

VERY ANGRY now..

wth mann!got scolded by my parents?

& all cuz of results!

i can't stand it..plz..

for heaven's sake stop ruling my

life with an iron rod!

i'm no linger a kid kkz..

so stop ruining my life!

the worse thing was that they had 2 drag ballet in?

fine! if u want me 2 quit..

so be it! i don't give a damn..

and whats the talk abt freedom??

u think u give us a lot of freedom??

come on mann..if u think so..

u r ABSOLUTELY WRONG..

don't keep comparing us with urself..

we r living in a modern society now!

where everything is different!

u really forcing me to the end mann..

i might juz as well kill myself?

haha nah juz an expression..

ok i don't care abt them alr..

anw went for ballet ytd & danced for 5 hrs?

grade 7 class was a breeze.

xcept 4 the presence of regina & jac..

they suck mann..honestly..

and they are so damn ACT!

ok i'm so unlucky..

had to stand in that row..

and muz do dunno what extra part..

it's so bloody difficult..

whatsmore its on pointe??

and stupid regi & jac didnt give a damn

when i asked them to teach me?

only audrey did help..

i guess i'm gonna die mann..

it sux.having 2 dance with snobbish seniors!

i noe u guys look down on us G7 ppl..

so what?! to tell u the truth..

all the G7 girls dance nicer than u guys!

so stop showing off..

ok feeling stressed enough.

eyes swollen after all the crying..

dun wanna talk abt it anymore..

sayonara!

*vexed* zZZz

2004-10-23T08:36:00.000-07:00

today was a very tiring day!

where shld i start? hmmm..

ok.went for tuition in the morning.

was so sleepy cldn't pay attention.

haha aft that went home & slp again.

then watch meteor gardens. nice!

daoming si's attitude is so unpredictable!

ok went for ballet at abt 5 plus.

did G7 class. was so scared Mm

wld pick on me again..luckily she didn't!

yay! finally learnt the centre exercises.

so cute lea. haha esp the adage & floor one.

aft tt carried on with the dance rehearsal.

me, cq, queen, jen, jy, mei, julia..

+ aud, regi, elsi, chris, jac

did the "waltz of the flowers"

yay! i partnering my partner..jun yan..

haha so fun! but i keep forgetting.

actually it was quite messy..

but the thout of gong on pointe is terrible.

i'm gonna die! hope i wont FALL heex.

mei queen & i r also in the pas de deux??

i dunno if tts a gd thing..

coz i think we r like still young.

will be doing with adults like chris andy..

which is like so err DORTZ..

i dunno juz feel tt we dun qualify?

yupps. nvm take 1 step at a time.

yupps gonna bed soon..i'm so tired!

seriously my body will ache like hell tmr!

sigh i'm dead beat.

take care!

muackz*

2004-10-19T08:19:00.000-07:00

Peek-a-boo!

i'm back to blog..

aiyah received most of my results..

& all were so disappointing..

haha & now 've 2 work towards re-xam??

so boring cann?! haiz..

nvm..will juz try my best! =P

but i 've like totally forgotten all tt

has been taught alr?!

i threw them outta my mind

the moment the exam ended! haha

sad..have to start studying all over again!

guess what!! i gonna put on 2 kg!

juz coz of tt stupid plate of meat i ate!

hmph! regretting it now..

i'm getting fatter by the min..

how?! ok muz remind me nt 2 eat kkz..

sigh later go ballet 2 fat 2 dance!

haha..plz let me shed at least 5 more kg!

went to timo's hse to play squash & tennis!

it was so fun..ran so much??

& i was sick? so scared i wld die halfway!

lol..but "dodge ball" was so exciting..

haha xf car kass dana timo & mat had loadsa fun!

hee..anw was so tired tt day..

ok i gtg to dreamland now!

dead beat..

"JA!" - informal bye..

haha nitez..dun fall off the bed! =)

2004-10-18T04:39:00.000-07:00

PrincEss AuD & me..woah so hOnoUrEd! haha

2004-10-18T04:10:00.000-07:00

2004-10-18T04:08:00.000-07:00

2004-10-18T04:04:00.000-07:00

2004-10-16T03:05:00.000-07:00

OMG..feeling so sick

am down with fever flu & bad throat!

sigh..did so badly for my exams..

hope i wont get retained!

dunno y this time so slack.

went for ballet ytd..

woah! Mm asks me & the others to perform?

haha so fun coz its on POINTE.

its the "waltz of the flowers"

haha but..very very scared i wont

be up to it..esp when i'm the slowest

in learning the steps..

& with christina, regina they all..

OMg we r in deep shit!

haha. but it will be exciting though.

with 5 grand pianos playing & so on.

well. have to go for dinner later.

bored..anw i m gonna get a new phone!

hopefully larr..lol

but with my results like this..

oh no mama might not allow!

ok gtg for dinner now..

bb t.c cya!

2004-10-11T19:59:00.000-07:00

whoosh!

finally i can BREATHE normally again.

how i wish time cld be brought to a standstill

at this very moment..

but that is definitely not possible..

i had better enjoy these 2 days before

my NIGHTMARE!

which is on thurs when we ll be

getting back all our results.

if i really can't accept the fact tt

i did SOO BADLY..

how m i gonna face my parents.

anw..yar ytd had lotsa FUN!

hee..went to timo's hse &

played tennis & squash..

wah i think i sucked at tennis!

haha but i think xf & i are beginning

to LOVE squash..

& not love BEING squash..

lol..yupp & i didn noe timo cld play so well!

haha.not tt i m being mean..

but juz tt u amazed me!

haha..ya alex was soo BAD..

he made me run & haha..

xf too..poor her~!

ya when we left which was abt 6.30

i dunno what happened..

& i ended up walking with xf..

then haz sh & aud were walking

so BLOODY fast can?

for some reason or another.

i think they were angry..

but my legs were almost giving way.

sigh..shld i go to kass hse..

have to give carena a wake up call..

haha then we ll discuss..

but i m like quite tired..

whole body aching! haha

ok nvm.. i shall wake carena now

then we'll see if we wanna go..

haha anw..carena! sry kkz..

abt ytd..i didnt mean to do tt..

haha i mean like aiya i dunno larr..

haha sorry.. anw..

gtg wake CARENA the *sleeping crow!

cya..*blessed*

2004-10-09T01:18:00.000-07:00

mugging..mugging & more!

chi is like kinda alot?

i 'm not really sure..

haven't started memorizing yet..

& maths..oh mann

i think no hope of passing?

yay! i 'm going for ballet later.

OH mann. i haven gone for like 2 weeks?!

wah the fats are accumulating real fast..

cant wait to jump abt & dance! =P

it feels like i haven danced for a few months?

haha..cool so exciting!

learning new centre exerc. later

hope i can absorbed them.. haha

haven seen cq queen jen lana & all for so long!

everybody so bz..

aft exams we muz go out 2geta kkz??

woah tt will be like so fun? haha

cant wait for my chi & e maths to finish.

but soon i'll ve to study for re-exam..

101% muz sit for both sci & maths??

i was practically trying my luck 4 ALL the quest!

i cant blive tt..so disappointing =(

this is the 1st exam where i go in with an EMPTY head.

i'm scared tt i'll be forced to drop the subjects..

or worse still..be RETAINED!

Ahh..so sucky..i hate this mann!

forget it..juz have to work hard for re exam.

ok gtg soon for ballet.

will blog again..

*promisez*

2004-10-05T01:56:00.000-07:00

sigh feeling so sad..

to mrs ngaim..

SORRY sorry SORRY sorry SORRY

i 'm feeling so bad abt what i said to you earlier on..

plz..plz don't take it to heart..

i hope you will turn a DEAF ear to it..

i m reaLLY SRY..

honestly i didnt mean it..

juz felt pissed & frustrated that..

i was not able to solve a single question.

SORRY..

plz forgive me.. =(

2004-10-04T01:07:00.000-07:00

heyz! here's a funny poem..

to cheer & lessen the tension & stress..

chill out guys..

we can do it! haha..

enjoy! **

Roses are red,
Violets are blue;
if something smells bad, it's gotta be you.

Roses are red,
Emaralds are green;
you must weigh more than a washing machine.

Roses are red,
Tomatoes are too;
if i had one now,
i'ld throw it at you.

Roses are red,
like a big fiery comet;
your face would make even Quasimodo vomit.

Roses are red,
daffodils gold;
you might look better if you scraped off that mold.

Roses are red,
looming huge to the ant;
i wish you would drown in a waste treatment plant!

*whizz*

2004-10-03T04:38:00.000-07:00

i'm living in HELL!

OMg...the stress is tremendous!

i might juz give way anytime.

its not even the start of any paper

and yet i'm feeling this way!

oh mann.. feel like dying!

i can't take it anymore!

AHHHHH!

i'm not gonna give a damn!

if it turns out this way then so be it..

hate it mann!

suckiest time in my life..

i dun understand why we have examz!

freaking education system.

it's driving us all crazy!

madness i guess.

i totally lost my hope in studying..

oh well it is probably too late alr..

nothing you can do to turn time back!

heck it. dun think i gona study cann!

feeling so stressed..

God plz help me..

hope i ll wake up to find that exams r over!

and PLAY TIME!

haha..tts practical "day-dreaming"!

cya.. bb

i need lotsa luck yeah?

*freaking out*

2004-10-02T01:14:00.000-07:00

i run to you, LORD,

for protection.

Don't disappoint me.

You do what is right,

so come to my rescue.

Listen to my prayer

and keep me safe.

Be there for me,

where i can always run

for protection.

Save me by your command!

you are my inner strength

and bless me with all that you can.

at this stage..

i need more of luck & fate..

there is nothing more i can do

Time is running out!

exams are only a day away.

tts when the nightmare begins.

juz hang in there.

it will soon be over!

haha.kkz.gtg study!

pray for me =)

thank god! bb..*wheez*

2004-10-01T01:53:00.000-07:00

stress mann! gosh..

i haven started studying yet cann?!

accordingly exams r merely a 100 hrs away?

kkz..shall do wadeva i can

within this short period of time..

juz try..so long as i dun give up!

keep trying.. =p

it seems tt everyone in the nut family

is prepared to sit for the exams??

EXCEPT ME! =(

it will not be surprising if

i get the worse result among them.

ok nvm..shall strive hard..

talk to xf on the phone for abt 1 hr going on 2?

dortz..& we both decided to preservere.

we working towards the same GOAL!

haha may we both succeed kkz!

burnt midnight oil last night..

i really "buay tahan" liao..

at around 2 plus i was like gonna slp larr..

haha xf more pro! slept only at 5 cann?

nutz larr..so tiring!

dunno what happen juz now..

y suddenly xf, tx & kass..

sorta give us the cold shoulder?

it was not funny?haha..

nvm..but still quite puzzled!

ok gtg to slp then recharge my energy!

later gonna pia liao..

CHIONG le..

jia you! bb *winkz*

2004-09-28T04:01:00.000-07:00

err going out to her..

i dunno y it suddenly struck me..

if u r reading this entry now..

i want to apologize..

SORRY but i juz cant

take it that nothing ever happened..

since that incident..

it left a deep scar within me.

it's not tt i wanna bring it up..

but i m sry for the "cold shoulders".

no matter what..

there will always be a barrier btw us..

i feel so distant from u since then..

it's already over but it's a

fact that it really happen..

pardon me for treating u this way..

i've been trying very hard to forgive & forget..

hope time will heal everything..

hope this will not affect ur studies..

ok..gtg bye bye!

2004-09-26T23:51:00.000-07:00

hmm..had my eng paper 1 today..

Qn 2. smth abt Ordinary Level Exams.

i think its O' level..mitchell larr..

scare me! said it was normal exams?

haha..anw hope i did well..

pray i wont fail my ss AGAIN..

Qn 3. discrimination led to conflict?

smth abt foreign intervention.

haha oh well..its over!

phew count down..

study hard ppl..

bless u guys with magical starz *

oh went to eat with the nut family..

went opp. to eat lunch?

haha they were being retarded..

kass & xf kept quarelling..

~C.H.I.LD.I.S.H~

haha then went home..

and here i m typing this entry

gonna take a nap aft this..

haiz i dunno y i m feeling so..

topsy turvy? totally bored of this life!

i juz feel so mixed up inside..

forget it..i also dunno whatz going on!

ok cyaz bb.. *luvz*

2004-09-26T05:41:00.000-07:00

hiz..exam tomorrow..wish me luck!

i hope everything will turn out well for me tmr..

haha..oh will enter another entry when i m free.

plz lord guide me through tmr's exam..

i pray thee to help..

really hope tt my life wont be in such a mess..

i see heaven a mile away.

wonder where the angels are..

i drift along and float..

i dream of being in my own paradise..

sigh all i want is to do well in my exam for now..

i couldn't care less for other things..

bless the people around me too!

good luck..*huggiz*

2004-09-20T07:28:00.000-07:00

Yay! i can finally blog! heez..

how stupid can i get?!

lol shld have used the laptop!

anw..oh ya recalling...

THE ROYAL BALL!

18th Sept (sat) princess aud's bdae.

me, aud, car, haz, tx, xf, kass & sh

~thE NuT fAmiLy~

* except dana =x

went to SEnToSa..

woah what a beautiful day it was.

reached at abt 1 & went to palawan beach.

tHaNk GOD it wasnt tt crowded!

OMg we went into the water and it was..

fUn..FuN..& mOrE fUn!

it was really cOoL playing with the tides

& acting like RE-TArDs?

lol..then we had Oreo cake..

GoodNesS tt was HeAvEnLy!

i think i am juz being greedy

oh well..we took alot of pics.

haha i think it was so fun maNn!

e nut family at SenTosA together!

most impt..to my dearest "er Jie"

haha HaPpY B'dAe! &...

i'm Really really really sry..

for "his" presence..
i was like so Pissed with him?

anw hope u wont take it to heart =(

did all the nuts enjoy themselves tt day?

haha i hope u guys did! lol.

sad tt i had to leave early & spoil e fun.

Sry.. =p

onCe again..i wish pRinCesS Aud luck

in finding her prince charming asap.

ps:there's 1 but she doesn't seem interested?

best wishes & may ur dreamz come true!

always standing together..

ThE nUt fAmiLy Rox!

love all the nuts..

haha muackz **

*StArRy NiGhT*

Bittesweet - paradoxical taste of life

StArRy NiGhT