*____it's really a torture living in this world without u..but i'll nvr give up & i'll hang on till my very last breath..i'll always be there by your side regardless of what happens..please don't leave me alone___

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

Whatever that has happened,
I no longer care two hoots.
Right now.. i better buck up.
hate to be lagging behind.
feels really terrible. but i think
i'm gonna be so dead for prelims.

Life's been somewhat filled with ups and downs.
or rather more downs than ups.
i don't know!! bleahs. can't handle it.
you'll understand what it means to be alone.
and its the way of life.
you'll never what happens tomorrow.
For all u know, what seems like a promising future
may be dashed by some mistakes.
ya whatever it is, i need to like work ten times
harder than the others!
have to be self motivated =P

*StArRy NiGhT**i ShEd a _[tEaR]_ @
1:04 AM

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

its been a really long time since i updated..

many things happened.

my results are a great disappointment.

i dunno why too..

maybe i shld juz quit school?

i seriously dun think i m cut out for books.

i totally suck at tt kkz!

i feel totally lost now.

its a little bit funny..

this feeling inside me..

i wanna go on but yet i dun think i can?

coz i keep failing..

no matter how hard i have tried.

nothing seems to work out for me.

so should i give up?

i have been thinking abt it....

i see everyone so stress and pressurized..

what has the world come to?

everything is all abt study study and study..

there is practically no meaning in life.

why are there such cold blooded creatures in the world?

don't u get it?

looks can be deceiving..

bleahs. i dun wanna talk abt it anymore..

i frust up my sleeves..

lost hopefor everything even my passion.

i'm like a living dead..

i feel so inferior..

dunno whats happening to me.

*StArRy NiGhT**i ShEd a _[tEaR]_ @
5:10 AM

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

ballet_BALLET_ballet

haiz. Failed!

this time i did real bad. i juz noe it.

kiss goodbye to my distinction..

horrible experience.

dun feel like talking abt it.

juz felt everything cld have been done sooo much better.

i don't wanna get back my results!! plz!

hopes dashed. dreams shattered.

i think i'll like get the lowest mark cann?

sigh. wadeva its over.

FAILURE!!

I'm.a.big.failure.

I.failed.time.and.again.

I.noe.I'm.totally.useless.

I.give.up.on.myself

*StArRy NiGhT**i ShEd a _[tEaR]_ @
5:06 AM

Saturday, April 02, 2005

Approximaetly 23 hours left..

the mins r slowly ticking away..

after this long awaited 23 hours..

i guess everything will be over..

i really dread this moment.

every year, without fail..

once again, this moment is approaching.

i think this time round..

i'll cry, juz weep.

they did. and its nothing.

i might not dance for more than 6 months.

i will lose touch of everything.

life will be terrible.

once its over, there's no turning back.

this is the sacrifice i've put myself to.

really can't bear for the exams to be over..

when its over it simply means....

BACK TO BOOKS!

which i strongly detest!

this time, be it good or bad.

should i cry?

queen said we shld be happy instead.

coz we finally got this over and done.

but..what if u screwed up the whole thing?

i'll feel utterly disappointed & demoralized.

the pressure is building up! i have to hold on to it.

i can't imagine what ll happen shld i lose it..

gOoD LuCk deAriEs..

hope everything will b fine during this 55 mins.

the most memorable time for me!

i'll cherish it..best wishes!

i'm glad tt u guys helped me thru' thanks.

to queen & jy, i blive we can make it!

let's dance our heart out!

_* may the lord bless us *_

*StArRy NiGhT**i ShEd a _[tEaR]_ @
11:23 PM

Sunday, March 13, 2005

STRESS!! competition!!

i give up..totally give up..

i cant do it..there is too much competition.

pressured..lack of confidence.

feeling totally down & demoralized.

looks like this time it wouldn be perfect.

not even near GOOD..

she is seriously too good for me!

in fact all of them...every single one except me.

i surrender. i was forced to do so!

y did ya have to push me to tt..

its not my forte!

this time. i dun even have the will to fight on.

juz leaving my life in the hands of fate.

no motivation nor energy.

listness and tired coz of this premonition.

i can predict whats gonna happen.

everything tt i dun wish for!

Nothing is gonna turn oout right this time.

i know it..it just will be.

i don't give a damn already.

i m gonna die under character.

can u blive it?! doomed coz of tt??

fine..whatever i'm hell outta this world.

i want to work for it but i juz can't!!!

there is absolutely no chance..

not anymore..coz of THAT..

What am i gonna do..

i hAte it..i really do.. bleahzz.

y did u make me do tt..

u totally ruined my confidence.

.............back to square one...........

*StArRy NiGhT**i ShEd a _[tEaR]_ @
6:14 AM

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

RoMeO & juLiEt...
Date: 4th April 2005
Venue: Waterfront
Time: 6 to 10 pm
ppl!! e2rians!! almost the whole class except for some who cld make it.
n. koh and ms ten. bought loads of goodies to eat!

this pic is really chaotic!! haha.

jerald (the hippo!) birthday celebration..surprise cake 4 him! he was happy! haha.

this one is rather nice. juz tt i was strangled??

see our fist?! dun mess with e2 girls! haha.

cheezyy..took lots of pics! so funn!

aud & me.. so retarded =/ anw the sky tt night was lovely!

BOOM! the whole grp is in! haha..

alex n mitch act cOoL.. haha kidding =)

*StArRy NiGhT**i ShEd a _[tEaR]_ @
2:55 AM

Sunday, March 06, 2005

nEveR GiVE uP.........

Don't be down, it's only happening like a stormy night
Don't be down, it's only failure as a missing way
Don't escape, it's just a race for the freedom
Don't escape, it's just a game of really survival

This is chance to be stepping-up,
Chance to be growing-up
Do it, do it, do it, do it, do it now
So keep on trying again, and keep on playing again
Nobody knows what you want to be

Don't be down, it's only notice of the movement
Don't be down, it's only starting of the other world
Don't escape, it's just a changing for my passing day
Don't escape, it's just a exercise for the future

This is chance to stepping-up,
Chance to be growing-up
Do it, do it, do it, do it, do it now
So keep on doing again, and keep on laughing again
Nobody can't go with your way

* Hey hey, never never give up
Everybody wake up
Life is like a battle
Lonely way for justice
Never never give up
Everybody face up
Listen to the voice in soul

Hey hey, hurry hurry hurry up
Everybody wake up
Life is like a battle
Lonely way for justice
Hurry hurry hurry up
Everybody face up
Go on fighting with yourself

Don't be down, it's only tears like a rainy day
Don't be down, it's only pain as a falling down
Don't escape, it's just a race for the happiness
Don't escape, it's just a game of really chasing love

*StArRy NiGhT**i ShEd a _[tEaR]_ @
5:38 AM